Heart Pillow

Today was an awesome day! <3
It was cousin Kim's 45th birthday, and we went out to Aunt Cathy's for a little bit.  You played with the toys in the drawer, and there was a heart shaped pillow you wanted sooo bad...so I went and bought you a giant one that says "luv ya!" on the front of it when we got home.  You also got a new stuffed monkey tonight.  Monkey's have kinda always been your thing.  I love it.  You were such a sweetheart all day today! We went shopping for a bit and got some new shoes, we went and hung out with aunt brie and aunt vicki for a little bit.  I just love you to pieces.  You laid here with me for a little bit tonight and watched some LeapFrog and Fox and the Hound.  You are just too sweet.  I love you Khaily Mae.
Love, Mommy

Farsighted

Today was your first visit to the eye doctor! :D you had a ton of fun and were super excited about the treasure chest.  Dr. Clark told us that you are farsighted (like, really far sighted) and you got to pick out glasses! We had a chat about taking care of them, and they should be here in a couple weeks.  I am super excited to see how you are when you can SEE! I noticed when you were tiny that you had a slight lazy eye, and it's gotten pretty bad the last couple months so we decided it was time to take you in.  You HATED having your eyes dilated, but you took it like a champ! I love you Khaily Mae <3

Khyri

I realize that by the time you read this, the "ouch" will have worn off for you, and when people ask about her you might say "I only remember her a little" or "I was so little when it happened that I don't remember."  This makes me sad, because you two were BEST friends.  You fought, like sisters, but whenever anyone would get near her you'd yell, "Hey! That's MY sister don't touch her!" You were super protective of her, even though she took your toys.  You two used to hug a lot.  I wish I had gotten a picture.  I will have an entire album of you two for you by the time you read this.  You are an amazing big sister.  You ask me a lot if we can call Jesus and tell Him it's time for her to come home.  You sometimes get really really quiet, and that's when I know that you are thinking of her.  Just today, you were using one of her sippy cups, and you asked me if we could take it to her.  You have such a huge heart.  I hope that you look back on the pictures of the two of you with smiles.  Right now, it's still a very fresh loss for all of us.  We all miss her a lot.  You tell me all the time, "It's okay to cry when we miss Khyri all the time right Mommy?"  And it breaks my heart, but I'm glad that you understand that crying is okay.  She loved you tons.  She followed you everywhere and played with you, she took your toys and you'd come screaming to tell on her...it was adorable.  Even after everythign, you saw the picture of her on your four wheeler and said, "MOMMY SHES ON MY FOUR WHEELER! OOOO!"  It made me smile.  Sometimes it gets hard for me, because you are still so small and innocent and don't have the understanding of the situation that we as adults do, sometimes it hurts to hear you talk about her like she's coming back, but at the same time I am SO thankful for you and your innocence.  I love it when you talk about seeing her.  You tell me often to wave at her in the clouds, and a few days after her funeral you asked me why she was in my arms while I was sleeping...I loved that.  I believe that you still have a connection to her that the rest of us don't.  You tell me, "Mommy you know Khyri is in our heart right?"  You are such a gem.  I love you Khaily Mae.

We wend for Froyo with Jen every time she came to town

We loved family time outside

This is the day you had tubes put in your ears

The day we moved into the 13th st house

at your fourth birthday party with grandpa 

Mommy Loves You

My Dearest Khaily Mae,
I am starting this blog so that you have memories to look back on when I'm gone.  I know that that day is a looong ways away, but after losing your sister I am very aware that that day is going to come.  I think all the time how much I wish she had had a way to leave us her thoughts.  I want you to know how much I love you.  You changed my life the second you were born, you saved my life the second you were born.  You were the beginning of this amazing adventure called "motherhood" for me.  I remember thinking, "how am I supposed to keep this tiny human alive?"  I worried about teaching you good values and raising you right.  I was so overwhelmed with the love I had for you from the second I found out you were inside me.  You kids are my greatest, proudest accomplishment and I hope you always know that.

RIght now you are four years old.  I'm going to start documenting all the cute things (and not so cute things) that you do...we will read over this someday and laugh our butts off.

Right now it's 9:15 at night.  You are playing with the makeup you got for Christmas.  You have on blue eyeshadow and pink lipstick all over your mouth.  You have nail polish open on the couch...even though I just told you to knock it off...right now I'm going to tell you again..."I'll let it dry now okay Mommy?"  You just crack me up.

Your favorite things right now (as I'm aksing you)
Color: Pink
Food: Cereal
Animal: Spencer and Bella
Cartoon: Frozen and Mickey Mouse
Blankey: Frozen and Sophia
Person: Mommy and Daddy aaaaaaaaaand my teacher (Miss Di) and friends too
Thing to Do:  Play games
Number: 1 2 3 8 9
Toy:  Tinkerbell
 How much do i Love you: "TO THE MOON AND BACK!"

I love you Khaily Mae.  It's bedtime. Sleep good Princess.